I think I have spent so much time alone that I'm no longer comfortable around people. I'm supposed to go to a MeetUp tonight and I'm dreading it. Part of it is that this is a younger crowd. But really, I'm just afraid I'm going to be invisible = again. I'm older (and I'm a size 22 and not particularly stunning.) It's really hard trying to be social when you're an outcast.

I will now drag myself out. But I just wanted to put the fears out there. There they are.