I cannot take all the fat hating commments. I am a big, big girl and I truly just want to stay in my house forever.

My Facebook has been full of comments lately about fat people on airplanes, why can't fat people just lose weight. My OKC box is empty, because I'm undateable. I signed up for an exercise class and I just feel totally out of my element - everyone else is training for a marathon and then there's me. (although the instructor is totally supportive.)

I'm just so tired. I'm tired of feeling ashamed to even be seen in this world. To constantly be told how I should just XX or YY and I'll lose weight. I'm going to the doctor tomorrow (finally) to check out two lumps I've had for forever, and I know I'll get a lecture.

I just want to crawl in a hole. It would have to be a gigantic hole, of course, because I'm the size of a dinosaur, but still.

end of venting