I am having a horrible panic attack. I'm just writing it down so I can talk my way down through it.

I'm flying this week and I'm a very, very, very bad flier. So I'm already anxious. Plus I'm sitting here like a person and all of a sudden, the lymph nodes behind my ears just started swelling. This is a problem because when I get sick, I get very sick. Like I don't get a cold, I get pneumonia.

I would cancel this trip but I'm supposed to go with my friend and she will kill me. KILL ME.

So I'm both freaking out about flying and about getting sick. I really do NOT want to get on a plane sick. Now I'm getting myself all worked up about it, which does not help.